Ugine Ashton

How sad one's life can be

2011-07-04T18:41:00.002+08:00

I'm already in my 20s, perhaps just in the early 20s. Looking back at how much i have been through are just torturous, just how many teens would have been able to survive?

Well i do understand that there is a term in Chinese which says, "Jia jia you ben nan nian de jing" which actually means that every house have its own ups and downs. I should be fortunate as i am not born in a single parent family, but it doesn't really make a difference since my dad doesn't even care about our family. So am i even fortunate? i ever questioned myself.

People may say that they have their close one passed away or even in some illness, perhaps i can think that i am fortunate? Oh wait, lets think my grandpa who took care of my family when we needed pass away on my birthday. Oh and my mummy need to go for an operation, lastly i am inherited with High blood pressure. Wow i am so fortunate! :D

So what if people say they are poor, am i to say that i am fortunate? Come on have you ever had your house splashed by paint by the loanshark, even though your family are not in need of money other that that retard? Oh and did the police came to your door and say, "knock knock! i am here again!" telling you that they need one of your family member for investigation?

There are more that i can't possibly name them out, but what can i say FML? nay i wouldn't say this, i would say this "just continue to fuck my life, for my life is already fuck and its no longer a virgin thanks :D"

Living in my own world

2011-02-09T23:31:00.003+08:00

It just feel like i am living in my own world

Who cares about u

you think you're really important

than i think you're just bullshitting to yourself

I learn how to be more independent and not to be so soft

What you said was right

And i finally know the reason why

after trying to hard i still get nothing

I am exhausted and i am going to give up

I am thankful for those who still cherish me

for i know my existence was a mistake

Disappointed

2011-01-31T15:26:00.003+08:00

I thought i did my best

but in the end it was just a piece of shit

How do people know what u did was really good?

There are just so much for me to think about

i donno what i have to think now

I am really have a headache

Physically

All because of me

Every effort

Everything

seems wasted

All i wish is just to end this soon

I am stupid

retarded

Finally

2011-01-24T23:01:00.002+08:00

I finally gotten an answer to my question

It is not just because of you

It is because of everything

I am very sentimental

and very emotional

i once said that i will forgive and forget easily

but i have yet to complete my sentence

once bitten my wound will heal

twice bitten it will leave a scar

and for this scar i will never be able to forget

for my brain is like a data

death will stop my memory

Tell me how i feel when i donno

i am lost but yet picked up by some one

i thought i lost all but thank you for all

i felt better when u were there

i never expect that from you

because i thought i have others

until now i realise how foolish i am

thank you so much my friend

u added another word in my dictionary and that is

"True friend"

I will try to forget

as long as you are there for me

i know i will be a nuisance

but please help me as you are my only true friend now

thank you

True friend

Friends are bullshit

2011-01-21T13:43:00.002+08:00

I guess this is what my life is all about

All that i thought i have

All that i always wanted

It somehow changed

I thought

They would always be there when i needed them

But i guess i am wrong.

Home isn't a place for me to return

What we call as comfort and getaway

isn't afterall what it is meant for.

Why do people treat me as just a sand bag?

I have no idea

Insignificant to everyone

But why would i give a thought for them

When i was insignificant?

I thought i could approach you

All i wanted is to ask you can you send me those picture you took

I am never a superman

i need help

But why do you have to scold me?

Was i a sand bag to you?

I am tired

Really tired of all this drama

Emotional

2011-01-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

How tough life can be

Friends that were meant to be was after all not the one u seek for

How complex one life can be with the present of selfishness and ignorance

Perhaps that is what friends meant to them

Or perhaps it was me who was just a clown to everyone else

I cried for helps

but recieved little

Those who have helped, i thank you sincerely

I feel so helpless

Even though i kept spamming

but it was still limited

Just how would a desperate feel at this state

Perhaps it is time for me to realise this

Being good doesn't mean u will get good treatment

Because u will just be at the losing edge.

Be selfish

thats what i would say...

Life is never fair

2010-12-21T02:34:00.005+08:00

Time to time i have heared so much

Feeling hopeless and helpless

I wish i can be there forever

Just to help and assist you like a guardian angel

When i thought my life was nothing

You picked me up

I wanted to tell you how much you meant to me

but i don't have the courage to

There are so much i want to share with you

but it just seems impossible

I wish i have the magic to make my wish come true

and the only wish is to have you by my side

You all mean something to me

It was fate who brought us together

I know i failed

But i am trying

I never thought of your feeling

As i thought u will be ok

Give me sometimes and i shall change

I want to show you how much i care

But there is a limit i can do

I tried my best as i thought it was

Never did i thought that you wanted more

I wish i am born with words

But i am born with a pair of golden ears

Share with me your life

Even though it may seems ridiculous

But we are like a bottle

Whats need to be pour out needs to be

Filling it with sweets rather than bitter

Change your life as you wish

But never give up on hope

I say my thoughts here

and i wish for the best for you

For i am not a god

but i am a friend

not some one who you may cherish

but you're some one i will

the meet up

2009-03-08T21:48:00.002+08:00

ok i know i have not been blogging much lately
well it is not that i do not want to blog
but i am some one packed
firstly , i was caught up with stomach flu which cause me to lay down on my bed for more then 3 days
secondly, i have to meet up my friends
so i was rather busy and hardly have any time to blog
the reason why i blog today is because i have nothing better to do and so i decided to refresh my blog.

went to orchard on wednesday with Adam,Gayshy,Danny, Angie, Ynez,Ynez cousin kenneth,Emily .
we were suppose to meet at *12pm sharp* at orchard mrt station
but well u guys know who always come late
so who were to one that reached on time ?
me and danny of course
thinking that everyone is going to be extremely late( which really did happened)
danny and me went to paragon as i wanted to take a look at the A/X t shirts
to be honest the shirt that A/X have for this season isn't really my type
so decided to give up my A/X dreams
after which ynez called up and said she reached already
so we rushed back to the mrt station to meet her
well others are still on the way there
in total we waited for more then 1hour for everyone to be here
so we went on to fareast plaza
Ynez told me that my face looked rather "yellow"
so i think it may be because of my stomach flu that cause me to look like that
thinking that nothing would happened, we continued our way to fareast plaza

On the way there i could feel my stomach aching really badly already
perhaps i hadn't have my lunch yet
so we went on to a thai restaurant to have our lunch
well i was kinda picky at that time
couldn't really eat much of the stuffs there
so i ordered pineapple rice without seafood
hmm the pricing was quite reasonable
and it was delicious too
went on to Ynez favourite shop ( ok for all of a sudden, i forgot what is the name of the shop)
SUDDENLY, my stomach acted up
i needed a toilet!
so i figured that my stomach flu is not recovered at all
so decided to head home as i don wan to go to any of the public toilets again
sry guys , i left u all there :'(
hope to meet up soon again :D

time for me to enjoy

2009-02-28T00:31:00.002+08:00

it have been quite some time since i last posted a post in my blog
well we will have to consider that the previous post was a post for me to vent my anger
ok ok time for me to talk a little bit about me
it have been 1 month since the first day i started work in sembawang ticket office
well speaking of which, i have recieved my pay !
looking at the amount that i have earned,
it really make u feel so pleased
as ur hard work finally paid off !
well even though there are many things happening to me,
but looking at the sum of money that i have earned just seem to push away every other thing.

well i know i am obsess by money
but isn't money something that cause the world to go round and round ?
so being obsess is definitely not a big issue here!

in order to pamper myself with the hard work i have put in,
i bought myself a crumpler bag ( rustle bunny)
and a W910i which i have long wanted it
i know u guys may be curious as to why didn't i buy the iphone i wanted ?
well simply because it is way too expensive
what i meant was the monthly payment of the bill
with a minimun payment of 50+ which exclude the phone call and sms u made
it would cost a bomb every single month
it is as if a living bomb!
so decided to give up my plan for i phone and bought myself a w910i

tmr is going to be my last day of work in sembawang ticket office
if u were to ask me whether am i going to miss that place,
i would definitely say YES.
all the friends i know, colleagues and customers
so many of them !
how can i forget them!?
well life still moves on, u may not know what would happen tmr or the day after tmr!
so lets just count the steps that we have made in our life

Going to orchard tmr with my best friend
going to treat him crystal jade ...
well i know it is going to cost me a bomb
but what to do ?! i promised him already
Will be going back to robinsons to find my old colleagues
gonna buy my fragrants there too !
hope there would be some discount for me ><

ok gotta blast
update my blog some days later !

worst day in my life

2009-02-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

for more then 2 years, i dare not cut my hair to the shortest
but today...
ONE STUPID FCKING MORON CUT MY FCKING HAIR !
i told that moron to trim my hair and don cut
but he did otherwise
CCB u don understand english is it ?!
nabei pua chee bye
now u cut my hair until like arh beng
and fcking damn short
how are u going to pay back ?!
IT TAKE FCKING TIME TO GROW
AND FOR UR INFORMATION MY HAIR GROW SUPER DAMN SLOW!
now u tell me what can i do ?!
buy fake hair and wear?!
NABEI PUA CHEE BYE!
u messed up with the wrong guy dude
i know i was super direct when i comment about the way u cut
BUT LOOK AT IT ! U RUINED MY HAIR !
FCKER
CCB!

confused

2009-02-21T08:46:00.004+08:00

Am i fortunate or am i not ?
things just keep happening , and i do not know whether i am blissed to be in this family .
problems doesn't seem to leave my house alone
it just seem to be an unending terror and fear staying in this house
is this how a "Home" should be like ?
i know everyone would say,"No" but what can i do ?
i am born in this family and no matter how hard i try , i will still be in this family.
so what do i do ?
hang myself ? or even commit suicide ?
nay i am not going to do such a thing
i will just let "Fate" do his job

i have ever wondered whether did i commit something really bad in my pass
that cause me to suffer now
but i think it is just nonsense
lets think about it, u may did something rong in the past
but all those are in the past
So lets just fck this thing called "Fate"

However to think about it deeply
my family isn't really the worst as compared to others
i still have a caring and good mummy
she is who i am living for
i wan to make her to most fortunate mummy when i grow up

recently she said we should go on a trip
and i told her wan to go to hokkaido as i wanted to be there long ago.
She just agreed to it and said we shall go ,
but we do not know when we are going .
called the travel agency about the fare
and we thought that it is better to go down to one of the travelling package exhibition
so long live my mum !
i just hope that this would be a successful trip
as we always said we wanted to go but in the end failed to do so.

i am already counting down for the days i have to work
1 more week and i will say fck u too all the stupid customer
speaking of which, one uncle tried to be funny with me
he talked to me as if he is talking to his slave
just imaging how he actually communicated with me
i just wan to say something to the uncle,
" uncle i know where u are staying as i se u quite often nearby my house. So if you are going to make my life difficult, i will make your's living in hell! Just go fck ur mother can ? you are a disgrace to all singaporean and also to all chinese! you should be ashamed on yourself ! Mother fcking chee bye!"
i have more to say , but it is just so hard to put it in words.
maybe beating him up would cool my boiling"volcano" down!
HAHAHA

living in singapore...

2009-02-18T20:34:00.002+08:00

after so many days of work
i have see so many different types of singaporean
Whether is it kind, weird or crazy
i have seen them all while i was working
Not only that , the languages used is definitely different too
like top up 10 dollars, top 10 dollars, top 10, top 10 doughla
The funniest is change bu ne na, which was spoken by an indian ( not trying to be racist as he spoke to me in tamil)
if i ask me whether have i learn anything from this work,
i would say that i have!
i know how to speak simple malay and somehow understood malay language
not only that i think i am able to pronouce my words much more clearer

well u guys may be thinking why do i even wan to blog this
simply because my contract is going to end by the end of feb
so i just wan to share what i have been through this few days

I do not know wat i am going to do after 28th feb
But all i know is to continue to find a job or to go out every single day
so what to do ? just wait and wait and wait

valentine or violent time?

2009-02-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

have been working today
so i do not have the time to hang out with my peeps.
Well even if i have the time, i wouldn't want to go out too.
i just feel so dissapointed with myself,
no girlfriend at all...
So wat is the point to celebrate valentines?
even if we were to celebrate with our friends,
people will just be laughing at you.
Simply because u don have a gal to date with
and had to use the very last resort which is to hang out with your friends.
I know u guys may think that i am retarded,
but i am just so frastrated and pissed off.
I know i am not good looking, neither am i attractive,
but why do other guys that look even worst then me have a girl to date with ?

i intended to buy a bouquet of roses for this coming valentines
and was thinking which gal will be recieving it.
I even intended to be as good looking as possible and to pick up the girl,
and to pass her the bouquet of roses and say ," i love u."
However all this dreams were tarnished
i don even have a girl friend now,
and i feel so pathetic.

Looking at so many couples holding hand and carrying bouquet of roses make me jealous
I really wish i can be like one of them,
but i guess i am just too shitty for gals.
Even if i am not the worst looking guy in the world,
no one would wan me simply because i suck!
So what to do ?
I wanted to beat up the person who created valentines
it just make the singles more fck up!
we already know we are single, but yet this stupid valentines just had to remind us that ," hey u there, u are single don u ever think there will be any girls to accompany u out !"

i guess this is all fated
well not gonna think so much now
cuz i will aim to get a girl before school reopen
i know i am being desperate
but i have been single for quite some times...
Fck u stupid stupid valentines day
Sry for those who really appreciated it ,
but i really hate it !

my daily life

2009-02-12T22:56:00.002+08:00

i woke up reluctantly this morning
my mind were still in the wonderland
had to pull myself back to reality as those are just virtual...
i wish i can just slither to my living room
to think about it, we should bulid a slide which connects from my room to my living room
i know i am being lazy, but it isn't a bad idea after all!

the shaggy appearance were easily spotted by my face
switched on the television and dazzled by the "interesting" television programme
thats what u do when your mind is still fluctuating from the reality and virtual.
i was carried away by the television until the time reaches 11am
instinctively i start preparing for my "war", in which i refer to my job.

i hitched my bag and left my house at around 11.45am
amazingly i arrived just on time
so everything happened just like that same old things that happened every single day

a brand new day

2009-02-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened today
just like the same old things every single day
But today was quite a good day for me
not even a single idiotic customer
instead lots and lots of praises from customers
some even know how tiring it is to stand there for the whole day

i also shed my tears when 1 of the customer said,"
You realli did a good job, and the company is right to have hired u ! its been really hard on u standing for the whole day , i will write a good comment to your company about you."
finally some one really appreciated my help and also the fact that i have been standing the whole day !!!

Saw danny in the afternoon
as he just came back from the colour blindness test
well he have just a mild colour blindness
realli feel sad for him
i just can't see the number on the dotted picture
but he can still differentiate colours perfectly
i think god is playing a prank with him...
Arh sry peeps i can' join u guys to the malaysia trip
and the paintball fight this coming wednesday
i am really really sorry for that !

went for my lunch break
it was a lonely lunch break
no one accompanied me
but i made use of the time to sit down for the 1 whole hour

got back to work after my break ends
kinda tired and i do not know why
i almost fell asleep!
so in order to keep me awake
i kept daydreaming
dreaming tat if i had power
and some terrorist wated to bomb sembawang station
i would use my power to blast them all
and i would become super damn famous!
EVERYONE WILL WAN ME AS THEIR BOYFRIEND!
lol i know i tink too much
but that is wat i can do to keep me awake

well u might be thinking why do i feel sleepy even though i am working
because no one ask me any question neither is their any customer that i needed to prompt
for like 2 hours there are no customer asking me question
so basically i am paid to rot over there.
good isn't it ?
LOL
arh going to rot again tmr.
i donno how many times can rot...
but who cares
i am paid to rot !

the matter of time

2009-02-08T22:55:00.002+08:00

time is certainly an irritating shit
when you want the time to go faster
then u will see that the clock barely tick
but when u wish the time to pass slower
u will find that the clock ticks faster then it usually does
Though i have been working for only 7.30hours a day
but it just felt like i have been working for more then 12 hours
each time i look at my watch
the time have only past by 5 or even lesser mins
perhaps i have been looking at my watch and hoping to end my job fast

arh i just find it miserable just to work during the holidays
but i think i must conquer this feeling
i need to prepare for my future
i still need to work in future
like i have to work for more then 30 years
so if i were to say that it is very tough working
then i think i won't be able to succeed in my future

How cruel the HQ can be
forcing us to stand at all time
thinking that all of us are immortal
i know we are paid to work there
but can we at least take a sit or something ?
lets imagine people working in a much more longer hour place
they will have to stand for 13hours !
think about it ! it is 13 hours !!!
just 4 times working in such a long hour cause my feet to be swollen with something like a "waterbag" .
So we have got to consult a doctor as the "waterbag" are terribly big
there u go we will have to spent our money on consulting a doctor
and how about the foods and travel ?
if we were to calculate them together
we barely earn anything !

but phew i got myself a good location
where i only have to stand for 7.30hours
and travel on take like a few cents a day
i realli pity those who are working or such a long hours

Thought that everything is going perfectly fine
but soon realise that there is a hole in it
and it is getting bigger and bigger
But what can i do ?
i am being caught in between so many things
something by just having to make a small decision can cause me to scarifice a bigger thing
So i guess i will just let the hole gets bigger
not gonna try to fixed it
I need a break as in mentally !
i can't be thinking of so many things during the holiday!
Frastrated and pissed off...
So in a matter of time , things will be different ...

true or false

2009-02-04T08:27:00.002+08:00

sometime things are not what you see
u may think that you are really in loved with it
but to reconsider it again
you will think that ," No "
so what to do with such an unusal issue ?
simply put your heart on the table and stab through it
well that is just pure nonsense
there is not way to find out how much u actually love someone
but the only way is to wait for the time to arrive
then u will see whether are u realli in love or not
loving is not where u say u will miss her or i fell deep in love with her
but it is just some phenomenon which can't be explained just by a few words
i finally realise that i am not in love
so where is my love now ?
i donno maybe i will find one later or i may not .
well i don't really care about it
what i care about are my friends

How i wish time could be revesed
still remember the time where we actually hang out together
and even insult one another
never had been a wonderful 2nd semester without you guys

how i hate working life
make u feel so lifeless
it is as though u are being chained to something
and u are not allowed to go anywhere
how i hate this feeling
but what can i do ?
quit this job and game for the rest of the months ?
this is indeed crazy, not gonna be an addicted gamer anymore
so i might as well use this time to earn some living

I really hate stupid customer
i am seriously doubting whether am i a singaporean or not
why are there so many " kiasu" and ridiculous singaporean ?
whenever there is a fault
they scold the service officer
guys look at it this way
we are here to earn a living
not here to listen to all ur stupit bullshit
ok if it is our fault then i am ok for any scolding
But if it is not our fault
than do u think u are being a retard to scold us ?
it is just like the chinese saying "Han xue pen ren"( cold blizzard spitting on others)
don push all the blame to the innocence
u are just allowing us to mock at ur stupidity

People may say that our job is a super relaxing one
but wait till u handle such a customer
u will reconsider the difficulties of this jobs

Fatin i have always think that your job is the most easiest job
But now i think twice...
Sry friends can't go on a trip with u guys
it is my best friend birthday
got to accompany him :D
ugine :D

working life

2009-01-29T20:13:00.002+08:00

Today is already the second day of my work
honestly this work is an average work
Not too bad neither is it good
the good part is that you are all on yourself
no one cares about what you are doing
but of course u need to served the customer who needed your help
beside that we are able to go to toilet or even walk around anywhere near the ticket office
Well the bad part is that there are always stupid customer
speaking of which there are several customer that i have attended too are realli realli ...
well i just can't put it into words but their attitude are really beyond my words.
First day the most "unforgettable memories" is that FAT MIDDLE AGE LADY
i approach her and tried to help her
know what she said ?
" i am not here to chit chat, please go away!"
Ai bitch u think i am here to chit chat with u ?
Don be stupid and say such a sentence ,
it really make u feel so stupid when u say that
WHO WOULD WAN TO TALK TO CHIT CHAT WITH A STRANGER ?!
use ur stupid brain
ur mum give birth to u with a brain . unless u are a brainless asshole
then i have nothing to say
BTW don act high class infront of me
because u do not know what u are doing
Wearing a super duper ordinary cloths
an carrying a super duper ordinary bag
and trying to act high class to me ?
Look at urself in the mirror before u compare with me
1 stupid shoe can pawn everything u wear on that day
LISTEN TO THIS!
1 SHOE OF MINE CAN PAWN EVERYTHING U WEAR ! INCLUDE UR BRA AND UNDERWEAR!
ok enough about that brainless pig
the ticker officer are extremely friendly
they treat to super damn well
I am really really fortunate to be working in city hall
But i am sorry i am going to be transfered to sembawang next monday onward
i will miss u guys

Second day which is today
early in the morning
thinking that everything would go smoothly
but 1 guy
1 FAT MIDDLE AGE GUY
he asked me a qns
what is a tourist pass ?
so i tried to tell him the information i know
well i am not really that sure hence i told him that u can double confirm with the ticket officer
I also told him that i wasn't that sure and that is what i think
ok after which he became extremely retarded
either he doesn't understand english or his brain wire were disconnected
he came to me and said ," U DO NOT KNOW WHAT U ARE SAYING!"
ai uncle i told u already i am not that sure and ask u to double confirm with the ticket officer
U think i am the ambassador of the tourist ticket is it ?
LOOK AT MY SHIRT
I AM FROM LTA
not an ambassador of some shit
And please listen carefully
I SAID I THINK SO ONLY! AND I AM NOT THAT SURE
DON BE STUPID

After series of accident
i finally realise why i wanted to migrate to other country
Seeing some retarded and rude singaporean make me sick
Tourist here are exceptionally kind and generous
Let me tell u this
throughout this 2 day
NON ok NON of the tourist have been rude to me
instead they appreciated my help and one even touched my face and said i am cute( she is 1 pretty lady ok , btw she is from USA!)
so i would confirm again
i am going to migrate to other country when i have earn enough money from here
This is not where i belong
And i wouldn't say i am proud to be singaporean.

Happy day !

2009-01-24T17:51:00.002+08:00

Today is really a enjoyable and memorable day for me !
my sis brought me out !
its been like so many years since we last go out together !
she wanted to get herself a new laptop
so i accompanied her to sim lim square
took quite some time finding a suitable laptop for her
after buying we took a cab to sembawang shopping center
there were so many cab waiting for a passenger
but i have never took a merc cab before
so me and my sis walk to the back and ride on the merc cab
well there isn't much different as compared to a normal cab
it looks royal but in the internal
it is just like the same as other normal cab.

reached sembawang shopping center
went to ajisan to have our lunch
she ordered 1 of the ramen set which i do not know the name of it
and i ordered cray fish ramen
not only that she asked me what is my favourite ala carte
and for each i have said
she ordered them
WOW ! that was realli a lot alot of food !
so we finished up the food and our stomach were bloated
went on to buy her escada purfume
wanted to buy my hugo boss fragrant but i have yet to finished my fragrant
After which we went to challenger to get her laptop accessaries
she saw the Wii guitar hero sets and ask for the price of it
but i was so expensive !
Well i donno why she ask, maybe she is just crazy
later on we went to OP to buy some shirt for me
took quite some time to find my favourite shirts

After which we went on to Giant to buy our CNY stuffs
we didn't even look at the price of the items
and just put them in the trolley
wow that was really insane
I bought everything i like
which include Ben and jerry ice cream
went on to the counter and saw that the total was $90+
LOL wow we are realli insane
Cab back home to get some rest
waiting for my mum to get back home so that we can have dinner in crystal jade later!
I AM SO FORTUNATE TODAY!!!!!

2 days left

2009-01-21T20:52:00.002+08:00

today is the last lesson for communication
kinda touchy and emotional day
as we are going to have our holiday soon
well i know i am retarded,
who will be sad for holiday ?!
but if u come to our class,
u will know why did i said i am sad.
coming to think of the first day i came to class
looking at so many unknown faces
except george
Well at least i know Yue ming a little bit as she is my friend peer

Fatin told me she hated me on the first day of school
as i told george to take care of my lappy
well i also hated danny that time
cuz i think he is kinda dominant
but the fact that he is not
we all know who is more dominant!
HAHA! its turkelicious!
Not forgetting the first strike we go against our science faci
LOL we went to cause way point and had our breakfast
and got back to class in the 2nd meeting
But after which we decided to leave in the 2nd breakout
they went to AMK hub well i did not follow them

the first birthday that we have celebrated was actually yang yi ,dianah and enna birthday
still remember who went to buy the cake and was almost late for lesson ?
Me, Emily, Jeremy ,mutalib and some one( can't remember )
Do u remember the first " white house" ?
where everyone is wearing white ?
haha

Soon after there are 1 more memorable thing
the Wii session
Where fatin and geshy scream while playing guitar hero
And angie were trying hard to open up her eyes
LOL her eyes were almost shut !
while yangyi were trying hard to get his hand coordination LOL!
We also took a picture on how arh beng we are .
and also with a new arrival the patrick ( the stuff toy)

soon after , we have our chalet !
spent 3 days in the chalet
and our relationship is getting so much more better!
I just can't forget so many things !
I love my class
I love my clique
But don bully me again !
i am trying to get the word " bully me " off from my face !
hahahaha

euphoric me.

2009-01-17T22:06:00.003+08:00

went to nicholas house early this morning
as i promised him that i would go to his house
played computer for awhile ( until 2pm)
and after that left his house to meet xiao ying to collect the accounting book i borrowed from nicholas
soon after i collected, i went on to the mrt station waiting for bryan
we are going to peninsular as adam said that the bermudas there are quite cheap
took a train there which took about 30mins
we were lost as we do not know how to get to peninsular
phew there were sign pointig to us the direction
which eventually lead us there

Ok this is one frustrating part
i couldn't find and shop that is selling cloths
OK i think i went to the wrong peninsular.
kinda pissed off as i wasted my trip there
so i went on to bugis to get my bermudas
before that we had our lunch at bugis junction kopitiam
well one group of "O" level student were sitting beside us
kept talking about how much point is considered a pass or something like that
well we giggle when we heard their conversation
well it is hard to explain why we giggle
but u will understand when u are there.

after which we wen to the shop "Messy"
woot there are so many good looking shirts and bermudas
the bermudas pricing is only at $32.90!
so i decided to try out the size that is suitable for me
i do not know why i took size 32 but i just thought that i could wear it.
so i went to change
half way changing when my pants is already off,
the sales gals open up my curtain and ask me is it ok ?
WOOT?! DUDET I AM CHANGING!
phew that changing room is somehow enclose,
not one saw me except her
well i was stunned and do not know what to do.
Arh just my luck!
ok i am really surprise but i am able to wear size 32!
woot ?! i have slim down !
ok i know u guys may say that it may be that the size 32 may not be excalty size 32
But i bought another bermudas some where else and bought the size 34
miracally i am able to wear it and is some how big for me !

o i am going to reveal my secret now
the biggest size pants that i have ever wore is size 40! LOL( but my weight have never go beyond 83)
after some time my size became 38
and later 36.
i thought i was suppose to be wearing size 36
but now i am wearing size 32.
wow i do not know what happened but it is really surprising
haha going to cut down on my weight even more !
i wan to be able to wear 28!

after shopping in bugis
took a bus to sembawang shopping center
had our dinner there
and after which we left at about 8pm
reached home and i sa my mum all alone at home
damnit where is everyone ?!
can't they just accompany mum for once ?
stupid assholes
ok ok i am going to bed.
i am tired
and YUE MING . WAT OILY SKIRT?! u stupid moon cake !
don make me squeeze ur egg yolk out!

emoness

2009-01-16T22:48:00.002+08:00

been searching for an answer for months
and i think i have finally gotten it
Our brain is the reason to everything
Suspicious of things around us or trying to avoid ppl talking at your back
so what if there is ?
life still goes on!
so what if you are hurt
does it mean you can't live anymore ?
does it mean one part of your body is gone ?
IT IS JUST THE STUPID BRAIN THAT CAUSE ALL THE MISUNDERSTANDING!
let it be a bad or good day.
we should be optimistic and welcome each day
don let our thought went wild
be yourself
be who you are.
you don have to change for others
because this is who u are !
Listen to the song " this is me" by camp rock( something like that)
and also "complicated" by avril lavigne

Everything is just so simple
nothing i going on
neither is there any misunderstanding between us
why make the thing seem to be so complicated ?
u may say that it is hard to explain
but think again
is it reali hard ? or u do not wan to share your feeling out ?
though keeping things to yourself can prevent too many people from know
but imagine urself as a curry puff
when u stuff in too much, u will burst
similarly if u have too many issue with ur friends
just confront with them
if not this friendship would not last

Like i have always said life is odd with it twist and turn
u may say ur life is so much more better last time then now
but lets think about it ,
is it really that perfect ?

I just wan to emphasize on this again
friends are important
don let ur feeling get into ur way for making friends
if u have a friend treasure them
don be scared or avoid them wen u feel something is wrong between u guys
share it out !

give me an A!

2009-01-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

today was rather a tiring day
did many things today
firstly i went to school early this morning
thinking that today's problem statement would be something better then previous week
but i think i am wrong
we have to refer back to all the problem statements that we have done
imagine you having to think of 14 problems that you have did
so many things to recap!

I know i should not be complaining
as i have left half way
sry team, i have something important today
hope you guys have did well during the 3rd meeting

after which i went back home
while i was on my way home
kept smsing my secondary school friends
as she need some help in some poly admission stuff
had to contact yue ming as yue ming know quite alot of stuff
thank you so much for your help yue ming
without you i think i wouldn't know what to do too

after which i left my house and went for my job interview together with bryan
took us quite some times to actually find the buliding
it is called "golden mile complex"
arh i didn't know what it is a little thailand place
when i first went there
i started to remember a television show taken one part of a scene there
So i have to find level 8
and all i see is level 4
so how do i go to level 8 ?
so bryan the "smart" one found the way up
lol i am just kidding
finally we found it
wow the agent is really out going
she kept interacting with us and it was as if she know us long ago
she is really awesome .

after which i went back home
i took 980 back home
took me 1.30hours to reach sembawang
so i slept in between this time interval
LOL i do not know why i was some how shock and woken up suddenly
bryan was laughing away
arh i was dreaming of something
damnit why do i always dream when i sleep in a bus ?
LOL i know i am weird

saw clarissa when i was on the way back
so i decided to alight
after which we went to zhi ming house to help clarissa with her DAE stuff
wow she took 1 hour or even more to choose 5 freaking courses
LOL well we should forgive her
look at how slow she walk
and how slow she eat
She is like one typical "Arh ma"
LOL
went back home after which
reached home and found out that i have yet to do my RJ and stuff
so took out my laptop and do my RJ.
and here i am coming up with something to blog about !
HAHA
i am not going to let my blog rust or even accumulating dust anymore!

i am who i am

2009-01-13T20:45:00.002+08:00

been thinking over and over again.
made an decision
and i hope this decision of mine is the best solution.

1 week and 3 days to my freedom
can't wait for the day the arrive
i wan to take a break

Sometimes i just envy george so much
how i wish i can be like him
but i have missed so many lesson
and i can't effort to miss anymore lesson

today lesson was kinda boring
as there are jut too many things that need to be done
thank you so much for editting he presentation yang yi
without u i think our presentation would not be good

after lesson went to S.O.H award ceremony
arh i know i am not winning any price
but i though it was a complusary thing
but in the end hen i reached there
cindy( my enterprise faci) said that it was not complusary
oh wtf ? nvm lets just sit down and look at the award ceremony

there is a buffet right after the award ceremony
but i decided to skip it
it would be so embarrasing to eat infront of so many stranger
and taking free food from the table...

O i wan to thank dianah and shafiqah for their care and concern
i have recover once more
i am really glad i have a friend like u
u make me realise what friends are for.
thank you!
shafiqah i love u.

getting tired

2009-01-07T20:00:00.002+08:00

every minutes every single
i seem to be getting more and more tired
tired of my surrounding
tired of my work
tired of everything
i want to have a break

something just keep pestering me
i don't know what it is but i don't know how to explain the feeling
everything seem to be crushing down
but yet it still look so stiff and firm
how am i to explain such a feeling ?

i am now numb to everything
why do i have to suffer this ?
i am feeling so miserable as the days goes by
i can't imagine what would happen after this 3 weeks
i don wan to let go
but neither do i dare to shout it aloud
i am really really confused

What am i suppose to do ?
i shouldn't get myself into this trouble
but i can't control my heart
i really need some guidance

SO many things have been happening around me
1 weird girl somehow fell in love with me ( i think)
and kept pestering me !
when i block her on msn
she uses facebook to contact me
the worst is she got her friend to add me
what am i suppose to do ?
I DON LIKE U NEITHER AM I IN A MOOD TO FLIRT WIT GALS
i am troubled by gals now
really really troubled.

though i may be very happy every day
but i just felt so empty in me
plx don go...

day 1 in chalet

2009-01-02T21:00:00.003+08:00

3 days and i have been away from home
where have i been ?
chalet of course
this 3 days was indeed one of my best days ever
i have so much fun !
ok i am going to talk about how i spent my 3 days in the chalet

1st day
went to meet up danny and took a ride to woodland to fetch ( ok not fetch i mean pick up-> fatin taugh me ) adam,yue mong, and my dear fatin
we arrived woodland and saw yue mong and fatin
but where is adam ?
well he is late like always ><
after he reaches
we went to sheng shiong to buy the remaining stuff
we are like some insane people walking round and round and round sheng shiong
trying to find the food item we want
i kept making a joke to ask fatin or danny to buy the whole shelf of snacks
so after which we took a ride to the chalet
ok on the ride i was looking at adam's hair
maybe he didn't notice
but his hair doesn't seem to be messed up
but the rest of us like fatin ,yue mong and me had our hair super damn messed up
we look like someone who lives in the jungles
reached the chalet at around 2pm
but we can onli check in at 2.30pm
so we took a sit at the main entrance
ok i am going to fast forward a little bit becuz we did not do much thing
after we unpack all our stuff in our room( louis joined us when we were on the way to the room, but left when we are going to white sand)
we went to white sand
we took a cab there
there were 5 of us , so we told the uncle " uncle got one small girl, she can hide! "
HAHA! i guess u guys know who was that
so the uncle said" some one lay down , don't let ur head up or i am going to be fined 100+"
poor yue mong
we had our lunch at white sand and after that we decided to take the free shelter bus back to our chalet
while waitingfor the bus ( 30mins waiting)
we had lots of jokes
ok i know i have insulted gayshy ( i am really sry for that )
we have had so much fun in between the time interval
ok going to skip a bit( went back to the chalet )
went to find my friend pamela as she was some how depressed
i was halfway to the macdonald but she said she have to get back to work
so i went back to my chalet
went to the beach and played volley ball and had lots of smll chat
we were so amazed by the blue bird that was on the rock( as if we have never seen one )
and all the crab and crane was truely amazing
so we talked about our new year resolution
i can only remember fatin = wishes to be more happier this year
geshy= hot and pretty gal
adam= hot and faithful gal
and me =grow up soon and be a business man
sry danny and yue ming i can't remember ur resolution
can u post it again in my tag box ?
after which we went back to the chalet as silvia said she was coming
ok she actually said she will be comin at 4+ but it was already 7+
saw a super damn cool husky
i wish i can kidnap it
we have been playing wii for the whole day while silvia came in at around 8 +
ok we were to envy at others with their bbq
and fatin suggested that we should just go to our neighbour and sayai happy new year !!! and then wecan have some of their food
i know she is sly HAHA!!!!
danny, geshy,fatin,yue mong and adam went to buy dinner
while me and silvia was glued to tv as our favourite little nonya was on the play
so i asked fatin to helped me buy
after they got back to had our dinner
i know its kinda pathetic as we are inside the room eating mac while others are bbqing
but who cares
ok the time is about to come
COUNT DOWN!
silvia brought her chivas
and we said to empty the cup of cup we had on our hand when we are count to 0
AWW EWW chivas is super damn gross
i still prefer vokka
yue mong was super damn addicted and got realli high
she kept asking for more !
u guys can't imagine how crazy she was !
ok being a pig i went to sleep( silvia and adam left at 12.30am as silvia got something on nd adam going to malaysia)
louis joined us and soon angie too.
ok i wan to tell u guys something
everyone had aleast some sleep but YUE MONG
she is like immortal , she doesn't sleep
she was super damn addicted to the guitar hero
kept asking us to play with her , i think she is a master now !
i will continue dy 2 tmr.
HAHA

2008-12-30T20:34:00.002+08:00

ok i know i am being super digusting
but i have got to say this
today is somehow must worst day in history
i went to the toilet trying to pass out motion
but the motion ( which is the shit)
is just so big that it can hardly exit from my butthole !
so i had a super hard time tring to get it out
the feeling was lik i am trying to give birth
fck it man

it is realli not funny
it is realli painful!
god damnit just my luck

ok i am going to chalet tmr
i am some how excited for the event
speaking of which
my brother just came back from chalet
he had so much left over
like plates, fork ,spoon and container
but he would'nt lend me becuz e said he is going to use it
arh he is always selfish

i wanted to pack my stuff tonite
but my bro i sleeping
and i can't switch on the ligh as e will scream at me
so i guess i will have to do my last min action again. haha

2008-12-27T18:03:00.002+08:00

arh i know i have been very lazy nowadays
but let me have some break ok ?
i know my blog is dusty or even rotting
but i am here to blog again,
and to clean away the dust

ok i woke up quite late today
guess i must be really tired
didn't know what to do
so i gazed at my laptop
and decided to used it

so i as playing games all the way
didn't wan to go out today
as i wan to have a break before the chalet
arh i still don know how many cloths and underwear to the chalet
becuz we are going to cycle, swim and doing lots of stuff
i was thinking maybe 5 sets ?
arh thats a little too many
maybe 3 sets would do
well if i don have enough
i will just flip over my underwear and cloths and i can wear it again :D
haha i know i am disgusting but it is a joke

had a small chat with my friend
said he is going to be able to drive
trying to hao lian to me
but wat i did was just said one thing
"wish u bad luck, better fail ! :D "
haha i know i am evil

arh i think my lappy is kinda bugged nowadays
all sort of virus and pop up just cam from no where
phew i have an anti virus to protect my lappy
I WAN A NEW LAPPY! AND I DEMAND IT!
VIAO here i come

APOLOGY!

2008-12-22T19:41:00.002+08:00

Ok i am writing this is to tell everyone that is in my friendster
i am sincerely sorry for that .
did not know how i gotten that virus
neither did i click on it nor did i visit any porno site recently
so i do not know how the hell it manage to spread around
i am really sry for all guys

Went out with the kawans this morning
had some briefing with them
well gayshy kept talking about something
which is kinda making fun of me
well who cares
i manage to shoot him back by saying something else
so don play play
danny,fatin and yue bong were laughing all the way
we spent quite a long time in mac
and decided to go for a walk

we went to courts and actually walk throughout the whole stall
can't imagine how long we spent in courts
45 mins !
LOL fatin was super amazed by the television there
and i was fascinated by the bed
they know why

well with our itching hand
we touched almost everything
big things like fridge and small things like iron and computer mouse
LOL

soon after adam joined us
went to have a movie session
IP man, thats what we are watching
at first i thought i would be wasting my money
as i was suer damn tired ( wanted to sleep )
but the show was realli exciting
can't bring myself to close my eyes
well yue mong was beside me covering her eyes throughout the entire movie
LOL its kinda gore at some time
but it is realli a worth watching movie
HAHA

Hope to meet up kawans asap
HAHA

brandless

2008-12-21T17:14:00.002+08:00

yesterday was realli surprising and amazing
i recieved so many christmas gift from my mum colleague
you guys can't imagine how many stuff i got from them
the worst is i have recieved a pair of Gucci shoe which worth like 1k +
and a pair of business wear shoe ( real crocodile leather ) which my mum said should worth around 700+
and a pair of sandal branded converse.
plus some shirts and pants
don know why but i think they miss me dearly
HAHA!

well i decided to give my dad my pair of gucci shoe
i know you guys may say i am crazy
but what do i o with those gucci shoe ?
wearing to shoe ??
or even going out with my friends ?
thats realli ridiculous
i don wanna go around and say ," HEY THERE i have some fcking awesome thing on my feet!"
realli retarded
so what if i have a pair of gucci shoe ?
not a big deal too
well i might even get rob if i were to wear this at such a young age
and thats why i don realli wear super branded stuff

but i got to admit this
the gucci shoe realli look damn awesome
but nay i don like to show off
neither would i wan to be the outstanding one in the crowd
i just wan to be normal
just like my friends !

so what if u are the richest in the world ?
that doesn't mean that you have everything
going around showing off branded stuff at such a young age
just make u a brat.

Ok gonna meet up kawankawans tmr
can't wait till tmr come !
haha

clear bue sky

2008-12-20T08:23:00.002+08:00

finally i am recovered from my stupid illness
took me 7 days to be recovered
so i guess my 3 weeks holiday have now become 2 weeks
wat to do ? everyone will be sick once in a while
well i know i am always sick
But lets consider it once in a while

went to school yesterday
to do some stuff
my friend wei liang accompanied me to school
wow the library is amazingly quiet
the first time being so quiet
well i know library is a place which is quiet and peaceful
but if u were to come to my school library
u will think otherwise

after having my stuff done
wei liang taught me a little things abot facebook
wow i have just started on facebook and already have 88 friends
HAHA this show how popular i am
well it was just a pure nonsense
i merely invited all my friends in msn
LOL

after that went to have my lunch in koufu
had japanese cuisine again
well the food isn't fantastic
but who cares overall it is just some "school food "

went to my friend house after that
played my warlock for a few
kinda miss my wow friends
so chat a little with them
once again they insulted on asian
whats wrong with them ?
i mean us , being asian doesn't mean that we are poor or watsoever
arh just their stereotyping

arh i guess thats about it .
gotta play my game now

bad to worst

2008-12-11T20:39:00.003+08:00

this year is realli a tough year for me

had been sick for donno how many times

worst is that i have developed high fever twice this year

today was the 2nd time i develop high fever

how can this happen to me ?!

today is the 4th enterprise UT and my science lesson

ok i can skip today's UT but i can't skip science lesson !

already got an F and X for the lesson

F( as we went for a strike, kinda funny )

i tried to push myself

so i went to school to take my UT

half way through my UT

i started to feel weak

just felt that the world is going to collapse soon

couldn't even focus on my UT

finally i given up

submitted my UT without blanks here and there

and decided to go consult a doctor

Went to the polyclinic

took me 2 hours to be able to consult a doctor

while waiting during the 2 hours

it just felt like hell

my head is spinning

my troat is irritating

and feeling so damn cold

a group of friends saw me feeling "so sick"

and laughed at me thinking that i am pretending

wow people are getting more and more retarded nowadays

don worry i will curse u guys

and btw what is the purpose for someone to consult a doctor ?

get MC and escape from school like what u guys are doing ?

so don laugh at someone when they are sick and consulting a doctor

was suppose to meet up kawankawans for Wii session
really sry to dissapoint u ,my master ( danny)
and to all my seniors and junior
i know u guys miss the hot guy
but don worry we will met up one day
during the 3 weeks holiday of course
got to go my head is spinning again

best day in the year 2008

2008-12-09T20:16:00.002+08:00

i think today is one of the bestday i have in this year
have a group of caring and united friends going to chua chu kang together!
we are the kawankawans!
before that we went to have out "dinner" as gay shy is hungry
well i think everyone is hungry
kept joking while we are eating
damn u gay shy don talk about me anymore
or i am going to shoot u even more
LOL!!!

after that we walked to woodlands mrt
once again we joke again
dianah i know how to control u !
but i can't do it in front of fatin
she is like my arh ma , so FIERCE.
louis didn't join us as he was tired

took the mrt after which
joke again
well dianah have an extremely smooth hair
so gayshy have been touching it all along.
well i was trying to pll he hair
but i can't do it infront of fatin
she will rape me alive
LOL!

we bought something unique
and only the 6 of us have it
no one else have it
and each of us have a different one
which is kinda miracle to get different one
don be jealous gay shy
at least u are not the only one with pink! LOL

went back home after which
dianah went for her cheerleading training
while gayshy went to bukit gombak
so left with the 4 of us taking the same train
damn fatin, yang yi and shafiqah
kept laughing at me
i am really depressed
LOL well not realli
FATIN I WILL MAKE U PAY!
i will win u in tennis
and i swear !!
LOL!!!

boring day

2008-12-08T21:26:00.002+08:00

started off with a great day today
my mum make one of my favourite food
POPIAH!
have so much fun in the morning trying to wrap the popiah
but all of the sudden my dad said he was ill

well he went out for no reason
though he was sick
but he still drove his car to my grandma house
why i didn't bother to ask

went over to my friend house
kinda pissed off at the start
but later it got better already
well i will let him win for once

went back home
well nothin better to do again
so i watched tv all the way
decided to blog today as i have not been blogging for quite some time
not really in the mood for the upcoming gift exchange though
donno why but the feeling is just not right
well 1 more week to holiday
can't wait for my holiday!
got to go back to school tmr ...

family problem

2008-12-05T08:38:00.002+08:00

have too much of family problem
once they were fine another they were quarrelling
unfortunately they quarrelled yesterday
that doesn't end here
my dad actually took a knife trying to kill my mum
not knowing what to do , i snatch the knife over
injuries were unavoidable

what can i do ?
this is what my family is like
i know my mum is very unsad
kept everything to herself
did not even retaliate when my dad hits her
i know u are in pain mum
but u got to stand strong and retaliate from time to time
what if i wasn't there yesterday ?
are u going to be killed by him ?

told you to get a divorce
but u rejected
asked you why
and u didn't even answer
i am really tired of this insanity

i saw you crying this morning
but what can i do
comforting you is all i can do
but what matter most is you yourself
u need to start thinking of ur relationship
if u think u are tired, then get into action
don just seat in one corner and cry everytime!
if u wanna immigrate
i will not say No

sick and tired of this place
all the people and things around me make me sick

kickapoo

2008-12-03T18:13:00.002+08:00

went to school today
damnit i am sick
don't know what happened to me but i just feel so uneasy
can barely talk aloud
all i could do is just to stay awake and finish up my science RJ asap

all of a sudden my faci asked me " are you ok ?"
" you look pale and yellowish!"
o man when i heard that, my heart skipped by a beat.
WAT ?! YELLOWISH!?
so i told them that i can't pass out my motion and feel bloated and weak
didn't plan to go to school early this morning
but my mum forced me to go and consult a doctor
which i am scared that i have to go for an operation or something ( long story )
so i gave excuses to my mum and said i wanted to come to school
But in the end i left and went to consult a doctor

Reached at about 9.20
wow this polyclinic is so advanced
took me 1 hour before i can consult a doctor
asked the doctor what symtoms do i have
he said gastricit ( which i do not know how to spell it )
after which he tested on my blood pressure
god damnit my blood pressure went to 170 ...
so he want me to go to the hospital to do a checkup again ...
i really hate to go to the hospital
because everytime i stepped into the hospital
fear keep striking into me
thinking that something bad is going to happen ( like i have to go for an operation or something )
well i guess its all fated , TTK here i come !

went back home
ate the medicine
WOOOSHHHHH i manage to pass out motion !!!
the feeling was like having to take a shower after you came back home from your exercise
so refreshing !
took a nap after which
as i did not sleep well over the night

I really want to thank my class mates for being so concern
every single one is so caring !
i am really touched by them
thank you for everything !
all the messages you guys have sent me will be kept in my phone forever
i love you guys !
LOL

there ama i updated my blog already
have been quite lazy in updating my blog nowadays
too much things too do haha
thats all gtg

get over it !

2008-11-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

well its been quite some time since i last blog
was being lazy actually
and also another particular reason for me to blog less frequently

when to have a hair cut today
arh damnit my hair is always irritating me
once it was long, another it was too short
i surrender to u my hair!
bought rojak and popiah back home for my mum
she seem to eat so little for lunch and breakfast
even the past few days her appetite doesn't seem "normal"
so thought of buying some of her favourite food

the rojak look very appealing
but when i took a bite
it was fantastic
in fact it was the worst rojak i had in my life
it taste just like rotten fruits mixing in some shit
can never imagine how awful it is !

arh have been thinking a lot these few days
tired of everything
hate to be the middle man
arh at to do? this is my "awesome" life

not gonna go to school tmr
my mum's birthday
gonna accompany her for the day
Gonna shout heep heep hurray for not going to school
well gonna sleep soon
thats the end for today.

one fun night

2008-11-28T09:37:00.003+08:00

don be mistaken from he title i have set for this post
my fun for the night was actually the wii session at danny house
don think too much k ?
i am a pure and innocence guy!
lol

went to danny house at around 7+ pm
as i have to go for my game raid
after i reached we were playing guitar hero
damn cool
looking at angie ,fatin and yang yi playing on 1 particular song
lol sometime weird
they kept playing the same old song over an over again
wanna know why ?
because some one kept missing notes and resulting in the lost for the game
LOL i know who was the one who cause that lost!
LOL YY don deny ok ?!!!!!

angie was super damn cool when she was playing the drum set
she doesn't seem to miss any notes
and the position she sat was super awesome
she look like a percussion !
LOL

Fatin suggested to sing for the guitar hero game
donno wat song we we singing at first
what i did was just singing " whoooooooooo" all the way
and increasing the tone to match the bar
DAMN FUNNY OK!
sing out of tune especially geshy and fatin !( not me!!!!!! )
imazingly we pass the mission
our band are not officially called the DWII band/family
LOL i felt sry for danny neighbour
they must be having a nightmare when they are sleeping
whoops sry for that LOL

after which we played the mario racing
lol fatin u suck at playing it.
the first match we were playing
i was about to win the race
but some one shoot me down in the race
damn asshole
then i became the 7th position( was at the 3rd position)

after that we played tennis
lol danny with all his different post in the picture we took on him
lol he became the wii master of us
look at the picture that we took
sry master !

LOL we took hell lots of picture in danny house
we are the kawans and also the DWII
LOL damn awesome
our favourite word awesomeness
DWII/KAWANS rocks( we are the new clique)

nevertheless...

2008-11-24T21:59:00.003+08:00

went to school today
arh hate today's lesson
can't imagine how stressful i am today
thanks to shirley and shafiqah
they have helped me so much
i really appreciate ur help!!!

well our class have a interesting movie going on
something that is not suitable for children
everyone was rather excited about it
imagine how many ppl are actually looking at it
Alex were spending his time watching it after his presentation
and shafiqah keep pondering over the movie
while geshy have been cursing this movie as he dislike one part of the scene
what he said was" imagine them rubbing , don't they feel disgusting?"
LOL
well everyone is horny!
i think that include me

went back home
damnit see my dad in the living room
the minute i see him
my mood became the lowest for the day
hate him becuz of a reason
well not just a reason
but many reasons

ok going to school tmr
got to go cya guys
don miss the hot guy

tiring day

2008-11-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

once again i played wow
damnit death knight is still at level 78.
can't imagine how long it is going to take me to level my pally,lock and etc

argh growing fatter
have BBQ on saturday
ate quite a lot
well going to join rock climbing this wednesday
so hope i can reduce some weight in there
ok going to sleep

though my post may be short
but this is to keep fatin from saying "dusty blog"
LOL at least i update!

one bad day

2008-11-20T18:14:00.003+08:00

Sad day for me
ok the reason why i make my blog private is something got to do with my personal life
don realli wanna share
so don be mad at my dusty blog!

exciting and demoralising day

2008-11-18T18:48:00.002+08:00

though today was a very wonderful day for me ,
there seem to be something lacking.
Perhaps it was the cold and chilling day today
that brought the class enthusiasm to the minimum.
though the enthusisasm was at the very minimum,
but my hyperactiveness was still with me.
Once again i kept singing and laughing
without knowing why i am singing for nor laughing for.
Just felt that there was a euphoric event going to happen soon.

Beside that
i manage to influnce my friends with my song
they have been singing the song i have being singing for the past few weeks
congratulation to fatin and angie,
you have been influnce by my song.
I know you feel very honoured to be singing the same song as me.
HAHA
hmm was listening to some korean songs when i was on my way back
some how reminded me the days i spent in E37L
used to watch korean drama during lesson.
well it was actually influnces by some friends of mine
they have been starring at the compute screen whenever the presentation starts
looking at their face ,
it feel like their soul are being captured at that very moment.
like a freeze in time ,
their face expression doesn't seem to change.

Arh another exhausting day
how i was these days would end faster
just felt like every steps i took was like a 10 thousand pound of stone being lifted up
why wouldn't my holiday come earlier ?
damnit
a whole new semester is awaiting for me ...
but it just felt so far away...

i hate that place

2008-11-13T11:33:00.001+08:00

i hate that place
brought me pain and misery
come on let this days be gone faster

What have i done ?
i really do not know
Why do i have to suffer this ?
is it because i am despise by everyone ?
if that is so,
plx don talk behind my back
come to me
tell me what you wan

dare to talk behind me
but don don dare to come and tell me ?
fcking irritated by it
just fcking get out of my life
seriously if u think i am idoitic or what so ever
just say it
don have to do despicable thing behind my back

O god plx bless everyone around me
i don wan anything to happen to them
they are all i got
plx god.

boring day

2008-11-12T17:27:00.003+08:00

today is my 9th communication lesson
thought it was going to be interesting
but turn out that we have to do a lot of thing for today's problem statement
went to have my breakfast with my classmates
package back
had fish slice noodle
hmm it was not as tasty as it used to be

went to TRCC during the 2nd breakout
damnit i am going to be a pig
i eat again
was tempted by fatin as she said she wanted to order spagetti
so i order the rice together with alex
while shafiqah ordered her 3.50 cake
we confessed that we are a pig .
after which we went to do our ppt
was doing a video for today's presentation
can't stop laughing when we are doing the presentation

decided to choose a song that i and fatin sang
high school musical
quite cool right ?
even yang yi said it was cool

during presentation
silvia actually wanted to say the reputation would be tarnish
but instead she said your tarnish would be reputated
wow that was super damn funny

after lesson
went to studied maths for tmr UT
together with my friend fom NYP
i know he is not studying the same thing
but we studied our own stuff
went back home

damnit it was raining very heavily
the sky was dark and thunder were heard like almost every single seconds
to think i have to open the door myself
and no one was in home
started to think of the ghost show i watched on tuesday
holi mother f__ker just imagine every steps i took was with fear
i took a deep breath and enter my house
first thing i did was to turn on all the lights and the television ( so that there would be sound !)
lol i am not scary cat
i love to watch ghost movie
when i start watching it, i cannot stop it
never thought of the consequences i kept on watching
lol thats me, timid but not so timid LOL!

10th november

2008-11-10T09:10:00.003+08:00

came to class early today
was testing whether which talent points suits my death knight
to my surprise my friend play WOW too
haha kinda cool
have some one to share my game experiences too.

went back home during the second break out
thought of having a break
so gave a pad on my shoulder and decided to give myself a break
well at least i have not skipped any lesson for at least a month
so do i deserve a pad on my shoulder ?
haha

nothing better to do
so i played wow
ok this thursday WOTLK!
can't wait to train my death knight
perhaps that was the only thing that some how make me excited for the week

came back home
was watching the television after which i went to do my RJ
damnit i do not know what to type for today's RJ
i wasn't in lesson today
so i tried to looking at the 6p my friend sent me
aha i manage to come up with a RJ

watching the tv while blogging
was watching channel U " wu ling da dao"
their is a group that dance freestyle
they look super cool
damnit wanna watch it again

Hmm lets hope that tmr will be a better day
hope that the new faci would be a thousand times better then "Her"

2nd november

2008-11-02T16:40:00.002+08:00

ho ho ho, going back to school tmr
kinda excited and anxious
can't wait to turn on my mp3 and listen to the new songs i have just insert
LOL also excited to see my friends

today's rather a boring day
doesn't wan to blog at all
or lets say touch my laptop
but since my sis wan to charge her ipod touch
then i shall use my laptop while charging her ipod touch

kinda like 1 stone hit 2 birds
have been searching for a job
wow as i submitted my resume to the jobs i have applied
many company called me !
haha too much work experience perhaps
but i rejected everyone of them
asked them 1 qns,' do i have to work during the weekdays?"
and most of them say yes
then i just said," i am really sry for the trouble, thank you."
not tat i am not desperate for one job
but i wan to be able to cope with my job and at he same time my studies
don wan my studies to be affected

o i applied for barista job in coffee bean
hope i get hired
kinda interested in the job title barista

also applied for a tutor job
as in guiding little children doing their homework or taking care of them
haha i know u guys may be wondering why i took this job
since i hate children
i think that this job doesn't require much afford
nor do i need to be very focus on it
so why not ?
haha i know i hate children
but i will try my best to tolerate them
HAHA

1st november

2008-11-01T12:15:00.003+08:00

today's is a stumble day for me
everything doesn't go what i wan it to be
what have i did in the past ?

felt exhausted and was on the vurge of dying
thx to my friend yue ming
u have realli helped me alot
i do not know what to say but thank you
i prepared something for u,
show it to u on monday

while i was taking the bus back home
i started to think about my friends
do i really need friends ?
to think about it again
i think i need them
especially friends that are always there for me
though things have been happening to me consistently
but thanks to you that pull me back up
i would also like to thank bryan chen
thx for the accompany for the day
haha
o ya i promised u that we would have supper in the night
sry for not pickign up ur phone
my phone was in silence mode
and was watching my favourite tv programme
don worry i will accompany u to causeway this monday
haha

felt so much better after my friends comfort and my parents care and concern
miracle my dad treat me extremely well today
he kept asking me are u hungry ?
telling me my favourite tv programme is going to show up and asked my mum to go in to the room to watch her tv programme and don interrupt me.
for once i am really happy and felt warm staying at home
listening to HSM3 songs
kinda like it now
it cheer me up ! :D
perhaps i watched HSM3 already in which i think its cool
haha

can't wait for monday to come
i wanna shwo yue ming something. haha

30th oct

2008-10-31T08:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the day i made a decision
i think i have gave in a lot
helping but yet no gratitude ?
i think u will have to think about it
i wan to do what i wan
not what u wan
i ain't ur slave neither am i ur dog
i helped u becuz i am ur friend

don show me attitude when u are talking
u may ask me why i have been emoing for the past few weeks
at least show some care and concern ?
dude i am indeed dissapointed with u now
really dissapointed

my holiday is now ruined
i have really wasted my time
doing what i do not wan to do
perhap we should just keep a distance away for the time being
hate me for all i care
i am really tired of this

2008-10-29T22:01:00.002+08:00

nothing special today

went over to my friend house

played wow the whole day

Lets talk a little about my life now

lots of thing have been happening to me recently

regardless whether is it bad or good

but i would consider them as a experience

though time may be tough

but with my friends

i manage to overcome everything

thought over it

over and over again

decided to give it up

why depress myself over"this" ?

i should look at a brighter side

the outing yesterday have realli cured my emoness

Life have always been unfair

complains after complains

never ending complains

If life were to be perfect

that wouldn't be considered life

Though we encounter problems in life

why not solve it, instead of emoing alone ?

whats the point? do you think people care ?

u will just complicate everything

worst, the unexpected might even happen

Arguement after arguement

why can't we sit down and talk ?

necessary for arguementto exist ?

though it helps to strenghten bonds

but lets reconsider it again

do u think it help u strenghten ur bond or pull u aside ?

u may be there saying blah blah blah

but the fact is have u consider it ?

Life is odd with it twist and turn

Waves by waves problems will be encountered

it is not how we should face it

but it is how we should solve it.

28th oct

2008-10-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

today was indeed one of the best day i had
my friends and i went to vivo and spent almost the whole day there
there were me, ynez, Emily, Jeremy, Fatin, Alex.
But soon Alex left us as he said that he PS his friend yesterday
and can't PS them again today
Wa good sia so u mean u can PS we all la ?!?!? HAHA jk

We shop around Vivo
came across the N.U.M shop
Emily couldn't resist the temptation pulled us in
i hate the smell of rubble
TODAY WE SAID THAT EVERYONE OF US WERE TO BUY A N.U.M SANDAL!!
cool huh ?! we are soon going to be like emily
ok i have already aim my sandal already, it is either going to buy the white one or the black and green one.

after which we went to the pet shop
damnit i really like the golden retriever
super damn cute
it is still a puppy!! damnit how i wish i can steal the puppy
later we went to see the hamster
wow there is a hamster that was spotted by ynez or fatin that look like a husky
LOL super cool
Soon we went to see the cats
wow the cats are shivering i think they are scared of us
they should look at me , they will stop their shivering!!
LOL

Went to the arcade
play photo hunt
damn those photos are super damn hard to identify
later we went to play para para
thank you Ynez with your card :D
erm don wanna comment on that
they said i dance very well
of course i was born a dancer LOL!!!
emily dancing was more inferior then mine
hmm don look down on her

later we went to the outdoor park in vivo
sat down at a corner and begin chatting
talk about many things
Emily was sleeping there like a pig
well overall she is a wild boar( we named her this just today)
took pictures together
LOL we spent hell lots of time talking
it was indeed a very interesting and fun talk!

After which Emily, jeremy and i went to have our dinner
Fatin have to go off so does Ynez
sian 2 more ppl left
i ordered a mini steam boat
shit i wasn't hungry at all
the food was damn a lot

went home after that
talked about why jeremy face blush so easily
lol i came out with a stupid reason
he used the blush powder too much in the past
and the blush powder seem to have gone into the skin
hence resulting in him becoming easily blushed
lame reason
Jeremy stop ur gayness
u already have alex , u don need me
lol

To conclude the day
i was beaten by Emily and jeremy a lot of time
being bullied by emily and jeremy
Had lots of fun with Emily,Jeremy, Ynez, Fatin and Alex
Ynez and Emily have a new step mother( jeremy)
knowing everyone siblings age and occupation
bullied Emily a lot of them
Called fatin a SUCKER
know where fatin works
And know what true friends are all about :D
i know u guys love me ya ?!

26th oct

2008-10-26T17:32:00.004+08:00

Last person to make you smile?- Yueming

Who can you blame for your bad mood today?- My retardness

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?- Yes!

Do you think you are an argumentative person?-always. don cross over me.

*grins*Skittles or Starburst?-starburst? don even have any idea what it is.

According to your ex are you hot?- donno

Do you care what others think about you?- Yes.

If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?- its ok let them have it, i already have a taste of it ><

How was last night?- don't really wanna mention..

Who are all the people you have text messages from in your phone?-too many ...

Have you ever been kissed in a car?- No...

If you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean?- I am stress and frastrated.

Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again?- No...

How are you feeling right now?- Bored

Last time you laughed?- 4.30-4.45

Have you ever stripped for money?- No. not going to show my sexy body ! HAHAHA

Last nap?- 30mins, STUPID WEATHER!

What did you do on Saturday?- gaming

Excited about anything?- donno too any things to be excited.

Who were the first 2 people you heard this morning?- mummy and brother.

What's a happy time you've had in the past week?- Donno nothing special...

What did your last text message you received on your cell say?- Good nite ,sweet dreams...

Have you ever liked anyone that treated you like crap?- O fck them hard man, don let me see ur face.

Has anyone disappointed you recently?- Ya

What are you listening to?- turn it back

Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?- No.

Have you ever had a difficult relationship?- Yes...

Have you ever stayed in a hotel?- I think this is kinda retarded... of course...

What is in your pocket?- my tissue

Where would you like to be right now?- A hot guy in your eye

Ever been told you were loved by someone who didn't mean it?- i think so. shhhhh

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?- If there is one then it would be good.

but not that one!

Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?- can't remember

How'd your day go?- boring

Are you a big fan of thunderstorms?- what shit is that ?

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?-I hate smokes.

Were you happy when you woke up today?- not at all.

25th oct

2008-10-25T22:05:00.000+08:00

Time to let everything down
i think i have been holding on to it for quite sometime
The emoness in me show perish once and for all
sry peeps for being too paranoid
I know what to do next
sry for all

Almost out of breath
just too much to handle
thx to yue ming for her help
really appreciated
i think i am going to do what i realy wan

enough is enough
i think i bottle everything up once and for all
Not only have it pulled me down
but the people around me

I wan myself back
i wan to do wat i wan
I wan my LIFE BACK!

know it wasn't right to be emo
but it was beyond my control
never have this happen to me before
first time in my life

Perhaps the 1 week break can pull me back from the dead
this is wat i am
hate me for all i care
because this is my now...

24th oct

2008-10-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

today was rather a exhausting day

though the problem statement for the day was easy

but as you guys know TGIF

so every friday would some how be a " relaxing" day

haha

wet to have my lunch with my friends

ate the deep fried hot chick from taiwan cuisine

ok they have improve

their rice are no longer uncook

At first i thought that i won't be able to play with angkongkia

But yue ming came !

arh thanks to her ang kong kia i was some how energize

Went for a talk on the 2nd break

wow it toke 1.30hours

so it goes to show that we have only 1 hour left for our presentation

damnit haha shafiqah not your fault don worry

after presentation went back home with alex and fatin

boring day

took a bus back myself

to conclude the day

BORING!

23rd oct

2008-10-23T19:40:00.002+08:00

today was rather a tiring day

because i couldn't abandon my team mates

came to school thought i was going to be late

rushed up the class and realise that i am still early

arh shoudn't have rushed to the class

Brought my chocolate milk to school

Maggi noodle was the lunch for the day

Instead of Maggi noodle

i spent my money on a packet of fish noodle

kinda stupid for me to bring my maggi noodle and not consuming it

well at least the milk was not left unintact

thanks to mumu :D

once again we played the game called"hotel 626"

though we played it already yesterday

but it seem like it was like a whole new experience

the screeming and shouting filled the room with horror and excitement

temptation towards the game was unresistable

placed my hand on the keyboard and began typing hotel626.com

reached the 4th level and found out that the screen was freezed

god damnit just another day of mine.

there was a competition for a packet of chips

kinda motivated me as i want to share it with the class

perhaps it was my eagerness that have failed my team

got a negative 1 for the overall

At least we are not the worst

went back home with adam,fatin,yang yi, louis and mumu

had so much fun with them

those jokes was indeed hilarious

managed to make yang yi laughed with "noise"

kinda weird for him laughing without noise

haha laugh out aloud

like the pokemon we have in class

do remember to control your laughter!

haha!

22nd oct

2008-10-22T20:46:00.005+08:00

was feeling emo for the first half of the day

donno why maybe moodswing

Sian i wan my hyperactiveness back!

went to have my lunch with Alex,Emily,Ynez and YM

actually wanted to eat with fatin they all

but they know the reason...

WA SIAN WHEN I RECIEVE FATIN MSG

i should have gone with them la

i hate koufu food

nothing i ie there except the japanese

nvm wats done is done

Went back to class and did my worksheet

we kinda had a debate within the class

as you guys know i talk a lot

so when george have any opinion i will just rebate

HAHA

thats my style

After which came our 2nd break out

wow we are playing the hotel 626

kinda spooky

everyone of us ar gathering around Alex seats to watch him play

Wow there is a part where we need to turn the music box at a certain pace

to make the "Ghost baby" to sleep

WOW stupid alex donno how to turn te baby wake up and scare us

that was super funny

wow today my team is the moderator

My bro group was shootso badly by the faci

feel bad for them

don think too much tmr will be a better day :D

if u need help come to us

what are friends for ?:D

Ok i am going to play my hotel 626 now

wait i need to call my bro with me

HAHA i am going scare him

HAHAHA

21th oct

2008-10-21T18:56:00.002+08:00

nothing special today

same old thing that i do everyday

like that same

i had my lunch with my classmates

called someone with us

hope they are not pissed off

Today was rather tiring

no worksheet for today

as the faci wan to challenge us to figure out the problem without any guide

had many debates with my group

lol we are kinda dominant

each of us don seem to agree with one another

faci came over to our group

thought my group answered the problem statement already

but i think i am a little naive

how can it be solved so easily ?

kinda retarded

After 2nd break

saw emily group going back home

wow how can she go home ?!

their grades isn't perfect

so me and some of our friends went to find them

hope to get them back to class

don wanna let the faci look down on them

I am really sry if i have interfere with your business

but i think as a friend that's what we should do

really sry for that

3rd meeting come

emily groups return

phew they have made a right decision!

went back home with fatin and yue bong

kinda tired

saw sharon while walking towards woodlands interchange

O ya sharon sry for asking question on your team presentation

i know i am kinda stupid for today

really sry !

UT for tomorrow

got to study for UT!

20th oct

2008-10-20T16:13:00.002+08:00

Came to school

omg we have to bring our thermometer for today

shit i don have...

so they asked me to buy a thermometer from the stall

so i look at my wallet

FCK i did not bring enough money

though it cost $2...

but i only have $1.70

my mum forgot to put my daily allowance into my wallet

so i called alex for help

phew i managed to get into school

had my lunch with my classmates

shit i forgot to borrow books from the library

went down with yang yi and alex

while we are borrowing books

Yang yi called Alex to come( in which go over to him)

Alex and his yellow thoughts he was doing the masterbating action

Because he thought yang yi wants CUM.

secret society wanted to meet

i choose not to meet with them

my presentation need to be done!

i am really sry, i know you guys miss me

LOL

changed my PM for MSN

thanks to fatin we manage to come up with a good PM

LOL

During the 3rd meeting

shafiqah i know what you are doing

and i know you want to laugh

just remember one thing...

shake shake shake shake i'm shaking!

LOL

18th oct

2008-10-18T13:27:00.002+08:00

well today's bored

nothing better to do but to play my cabal

At first me and alex and some peeps are going to play pool

but at the end cancelled

hmm guess i don have anything to do but to play computer games

quite moody nowdays

don even know why

LOL maybe i inherit the moodswing

LOL

hmm lets see what i can do for today...

i think i am going to jog with my friend later

donno whether is he free or not .

well today's boring day for me .

17th oct

2008-10-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

Today is a terrible day for me
I do not now why but i feel frastrated
Things just doesn's go the way i want it to be
super uneasy today
i do not know why
think too much maybe
or...

Well i think if it realy happen
i think i don have to say much

quarrelled with my mum over a packet or rice
ridiculous right ?
thx to my FATHER
like always he ignore us and just pretend he never see anything
wow fck off idiot...
thx to u again
don be an asshole when you don even qualify to be
u are nothing but a piece of shit
get it? A PIECE OF SHIT.
go into your shity wonderland
don come out
u are just polluting the air!

I AM GOING TO BED
I AM TOO FRASTRATED TODAY...

16th oct

2008-10-16T20:59:00.002+08:00

Have UT today

wa sian the question being phrase are like FCK?!

don even understand what they are asking for

Nvm i am not the only one who don understand the question

LOL

i won't be te only one who will die

am i right emily ?

Went to have my lunch with my class

Ate nonya cuisine

Wow that nonya cuisine is super damn nice

you guys should really try

i like the curry rice

i think claire also like it very much

it is kinda hot for me , so she should like it

LOL geshy thank for that audio preview on Youtube

I like that part where you type

Yue bong, a mooncake pokemon

her special ability is to squeeze her egg yolk out from her head

LOL!!!!!

thats super funny

we manage to complete today's problem statement even before meeting 2 ends

LOL

thank to my help right ?

I know i am smart and clever

DON SAY PUI OR SHIT YOU .

LOL

Well i should thank emily,danny and geshy help for solvig today's problem statement

Without them i think we are dead

we talk abotu a joke on geshy

I don think i wanna post it out

kinda racist

LOL

Geshy i think you know what we are saying

Later Danny brought out his baby bottle again

His protein powder drink

WOW it cost $90+

thats super expensive

LOL

we sniff the smell of the drink

kinda like strassberry milk

WTF? my lips is swollen

damn idiotic

i told alex, emly and fatin

damn why is it swollen ??

it is as thick as my ass now ( exggerating)

Guys pray for me to be healed!

15th oct

2008-10-15T20:53:00.002+08:00

ok there is nothing special today

like the same old thing that we do in class

PDT

Worksheet

Presentation

LOL alex with his horny jokes

when can you cut out this yellow jokes ?

who corrupted your mind ?

sry shirley for saying you and alex are husband and wife

i promise i won't say it again

LOL

Went home with my friends today

wa lao their class super fortunate

their faci bought them snacks

and their faci is super good in grading

Always give A and B

Not only that the time that they are beig release are also good too

Unlike us we are dismiss at 5 pm

He is also able to go back home at 4 or 4.30

Wa i kinda mis my previous semester

I can go home earlier

kinda miss cuiting,sylvia felix and the rest of them

perhaps i did not see them for quite some time

Maybe we should meet up again

go eat prata

Oh ya felix you will have to drive us there

remember to drive us back too

LOL

Gonna study for my UT

can't blog anymore

All the best to E35C and E37L peeps

lets get an A together :D

14th oct

2008-10-14T19:49:00.002+08:00

today's was rather tired

slept later yesterday night

came to school like a living undead

damnit i studied the wrong module for today's UT

instead of studying communication, i studied computing...

well thank to my stupidity i spent almost the whole night to study for my computing

I think i should be able to pass today's UT

phew i managed to study at the very last minute

Ok next UT computing

Went for break with my previous semester classmates

me cui ting and sylvia

later desmond and daniel joined us

LOL desmond told me he have been having lunch with daniel ever since we change to a new class room

they ask me to call them out for lunch together

i told them," nay i don wanna disturb u 2. "

LOL

went to the library and borrow books

saw ynez and emily so went wih them

wow there are tons of books

which should i choose ?

well i randomly pick some of the books and went off

After presentation

Went home with my friends

Sry fatin can't accompany you guys to orchard

damn tired today

walking down with alex and shirley

ok i know i am being a light bulb

but i walked away after we exit the agora hall

alex enjoy ur trip with her

Don worry shirley he is not watching porn

he is just playing game with me

LOL don worry too much

must trust ur husband

another boring day

I feel something strange...

really strange...

13th oct

2008-10-13T21:08:00.002+08:00

came to school

was rather tired

don't wanna come to school

but was being force to

faci told us that we are going to have our 2nd meeting in the library

woohoo it is going to be something special for the day

my classmates and i dine at W6

Wow the first time where 16 people dine together !

LOL

let me name them

Adam, George, Me, Angie,

yue bong, mu mu, louis,

danny, jeremy, claire, yangyi,

Alex, geshy,emily, Ynez,

silvia.

LOL hope i did not miss anyone out.

after lunch we went to te library

it was terrible...

there are just too much thing to be done...

too much information

too much books

too much stress!!!

damn this special day was totally ruined.

decided to go back to class to do my presentation

super damn stupid, me and dianah borrowed 4 books each

and i have to carried them to the class.

why didn't i do it in the library ?

nvm

Ynez left half way

felt bad for her

cuz i did not gave her work

Sry peeps

i will try to change alrite ?

Ynez i cause you to lose your grades today...

i really apologize for that

sorry...

friends called me saying it was one of my bestfriend birthday

wow i have to rush down to causeway to eat sakea

Ran all the way down to sakea

erm they called some weird person

super damn weird

barely eat like 8 plates then cannot make it...

she don weat cucumber, raw food, wasabi

and lots of stuff...

wow what she eat at home ?

so many things don dare to eat.

and i don believe that she can't eat anymore

she trying to bluff me is it ?

LOL i am not that stupid

Btw she is not slim...

we played a prank with her

ask her to called my DnT teacher say

Honey why didn't you say happy birthday to clarissa?

Ok that is not my idea

i am not involve

after which we walked around cause way

carried my friend bag for her

and saw yani on the way ...

don mistaken us for being boy girl relationship

LOL

after which i came back home

Super damn tired...

i wan to sleep soon

hmm what to do for tmr UT ?

i have yet to study

and lazy to do it...

well lets just rot for tmr

may the god bless me.

2008-10-12T17:31:00.002+08:00

super diam sian again

life is boring

eat, sleep,play,work,study...

what else can we do ?

after all we have to die

so what the point to live ?

to have a moment of enjoyment ?

thoughts of this when i was walking back home from my friend house

Got to go to school tmr

well i am kinda happy though

at least i don have to stay at home doing nothing

I think it is time for me to find a job

perhaps i would find some entertainment

looking at the games i have played over and over again

make me sick

How i wish i have something better to do

Thought of going to jog

but decided not to

Was playing my cabal

my warrior have got to level 85(finally)

still a long way to go

well my warrior is quite pathetic

only have 11million with me .

don know when i will be able to get my motorbike(1.4 billion)

tried to come online(msn)

but i think my msn is bugged again

gonna take a nap soon

perhaps this is the only way i can kill my time

falling in love

but yet remain silence

How i wish i have the courage

i think i have really fell in love with u

For this i wan to say i love u...

11 oct

2008-10-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

Nothig special today

played cabal with Alex

wow his Force archer look damn chio

how i wish my character were to be like his

played for a while with him

Then i went on to do my own quest

i played for like 3hours i think

quite long sia

I forgot that i need to go to my friend house today

So i took a shower and went out immidiately

reached his house

In the night we had a steam boat

Cause he is having confinement

Can't go out

never eat much

cuz i feel very full

so i went on to play my own game

Left his house t around 10.30

reached home

weird my bro and sis isn't in

parent were asleep

house seem to be very quiet

Decided to play cabal for a while before going to sleep

Sian nothing much to do

lets take a good break

next week gonna be very pack for me ...

10th oct

2008-10-10T21:35:00.002+08:00

came to school early this morning

weird see very little ppl taking the bus

...

maybe the year 2 and 3 are taking a break .

Had my breakfast with my 1st sem classmates

sian at first there were like 7 ppl if i am not wrong

then it ended up with 4

quite pathetic

Hope for the better next time we meet up again

Ok today's there is nothing much happening

just that geshy had something special today

He went to play his soccer

came back with a hongkong feet

Woooshhhh

u can really smell the fragrant

wooshhh

LOL

He also brought back 2 tennis balls

in which we drew it like a pokeball

we named different friends with pokemon name

LOL dianah being the umbro( if i have spell it correctly)

Geshy=gengar

Louis= snorlax

LOL!!!

Alex with his lame joke say,"

Ai u throw the ball towards louis there, and say go snorlax!"

LOL!!!

alex u are super damn lame

danny another lame one

press the ball and threw it to yue ming

( acutally pressing the button of the pokeball and catching yueming aftyer pressing the button)

lame right ?

LOL! super damn funny

E35C is always an enjoyable class

pics

2008-10-09T21:17:00.004+08:00

Yue ming birthday...

Hmm are u sure u are 18 ?

LOL why u still so S---t?

LOL don whack me

The white family

All white...

The close up

9th oct

2008-10-09T18:40:00.002+08:00

came into class and was preparing for UT

wow i can see the faci face super black

even darker then geshy

I think he got his face burnt

LOL

Took the UT

I think i am not going to make it

it is just too damn hard

so i think i am done for ,for my science

ok went for break with my E35C friends

ate the same food as yesterday

its quite nice u know

u gus should try it

Its W4 foodcourt fish slice noodle

At first you will say no taste

but when u eat more and more

u will get to like it

Ok we are all waiting for the time to celebrate with Yue bing

the min yue ming came back to class

she han around the class

then came to my seats

Oh shit , they are going to do the popping at my place

god bless me

WHY SHE COME OVER ?!!?!?!?!?

ok i think god wasn't blessing me

ok one problem we got the class room in a mess

the cleaing aunty saw our class in a mess

oh shit

we are going to be dead

LOL

nvm we clean up the class after that

Took a picture together

Its the all white day

And i shall name this day the white day

LOL

I shall post some of the picture asap

After lesson

my classmate ask me to guess something called"black magic"

wow that is really a BLACK magic

thx for that sia

we stayed until 5+ then leave the class

LOL sry mates i did not go home with u all

i going home with my friends

sian today cannot say u suck to silvia...

SILVIA U SUCK!

LOL

8 oct

2008-10-08T10:07:00.004+08:00

ok i know i am in wrong

don come talk to me can ?

i have just apologize to my friends

so if u still not happy

then settle with me after school.

OK nothing happen

i am happy again

thx to my classmates

you guys rocks

i think silvia also helped me to be happier

thx for saying that i am suck LOL

presentation time

my team did quite ok i think

cuz we are quite cooperative

emily ynez i know what you are doing ...

don have to say

LOL

Thx fatin for saying me looking like a surfer

she told me to highlight my hair

and to buy a sun glass

hmm i am going to do that

wait to see a surfer ugine

Saw geshy group presenting

wa lao they show people have lion as a pet

i wan a lion

i love lion

seriously i wan a lion

if u can catch me a lion i will do what you wan me to do

LOL

came back home

mum told me she is going to buy me a PSP

she said," you are very stressful, u need to take a break."

mum i do not know what to say but just say thank you

thank you for everything

you are the greatest mummy i have

Though there is time i have hurt u

u are still there when i needed u

mummy i love u

8th oct

2008-10-08T08:55:00.003+08:00

came in to class this morning

the min slivia came in

say say

"Hi! sucker!" LOL

wow she suck too !

faci sent us the pics we took when we celebratedianah,yang yi, enna birthday

7th oct

2008-10-07T16:40:00.003+08:00

ok came to class early

cuz got ut

came to class see she in the class

wa lao why can't u be absent for this week ?

i hope some one else came in

doing my UT

heng i got study

i was able to answer the questions

LOL

first break come

we went to hell eat

wow we discovered a new place

that is the 2nd level of hell

we can take lift from there

was blasting the music during the 2nd break

saw how mutalib dance

LOL mumu u are forever funny sia

thx to geshy for the video

he have realli helped my team to destress

Super damn funny video

O ya when i say i was very distracted in class is not because of the music

i just feel very fck up in class because of the stress i have

so don worry it is not ur fault louis

Just wanna say E35C people rocks!

all of a sudden...

there is a blackout

one weird thing is that there is still power in the power plug

but only the light and aircon is turn off

LOL i got a moment of thought that there is something out there

LOL well it is just a sudden breakdown of power

nothing much

Sry sharon i know i scold too much vulgar

really sry to my team mates

i do not know what to say but really sry

supe damn stress and tired today

and i need to release

sry sia my team mates

i will learn how to release my stress in a better way next time

maybe farting out will be a best way to release

lol

came home with louis,sharon,angie,fatin and mumu with 2 sharon friends following

realli sry i did not talk that much

realli very tired

exhausted

came back home

decided that i cannot rest

i need to jog

sian

i need to follow my schdule

so followed my friend to jog

came back even more tired

i think i am going to faint any min

but still i need to blog

Ok sharon, Angie and enna i just wan to say one last time

i am really sry for sayin so much vulgarities

sharon i know i have corrupted ur mind

i will help u clense tonite

i willsing hallelujah for u before i sleep

ok ?

6th oct

2008-10-06T09:12:00.004+08:00

sian today reach class quite late

thx to the 169

Saw sarah taking the same bus as me

LOL we do not have much to say

so we just sat side by side each other

After that when we got down fom the bus

she went straight ahead of me

Sry i can't catch up

i am having a very bad headache today

coming to class mutalib and some of my class mates claps

LOL

i do not know why they are doing this for

Ok i am fcking irritated by my headahe

don come and piss me off.

Ok went to have my lunch with my classmates

ate tomyam ban mian

wow it is fcking hot

claire i don kow why u can take the spicyness

u are the women

LOL

Ok before going off

i helped my team mates to do PPT

cuz i think i need to contribute something before going off

if not i will let my team mates down

especially fatin and sharon

Went home with emily,claire, Jeremy,Xiao za bao(yue ming)

took 169

thx for the intro to take 169

took me 1.30 to reach home

thx arh

Everyone is emoing in the bus

nothing much to say

LOL

i try to say something when we are on the bus

But the rain is too heavy

so they can't hear me

Claire and emily say i am retarded

Am i retarded ?

i don think so

O ya claire is pretty cool

she teaches ice skating

a manager too

super damn cool sia

how wish i am a intructor

I will look super cool

lots of gals will be crazy over me

LOL

keep the comment to urself if u wan to comment on this :P

Once we reached yishun

i told them i got a way that will allow us to get to the bus station without getting drenched

so i said," if u guys are drenched, u can whack me."

FCK i forgot that when we get down for the bus we will be drenched

Imagine the bus did not park far away from the shelter

So they were drenched

Claire took the first shot

sian i have been beaten all the way from getting out from my class to yishun MRT

Thx for the beating

i will remember it ! LOL

While studying for my UT

and chatting away with Fatin

a bird flew into my room

fck?!

ok i ran out of my room as i thought it was a big big moth

don say i no balls

thats the first reaction

so later i went back in

and see carefully

it is a swallow

OMG u know the bird that make birdnest ???

but still i opened my window big big so the bird can fly out

Cuz i don wan the bird to shit on my bed

LOL

5th oct

2008-10-05T18:03:00.002+08:00

ok there is nothing for me to blog today

as there is nothing special happen to me today

Only thing is that my sis friend is sleeping over my house

and he was sleepiong in my living room

when i first saw him when i was exiting my bedroom

i thought a theif broke in

LOL

Then when i see his entire body

i realise that it was my sis friend

Sian nothing to do today

except for coming to my friend house and play

Don ask me why i always play computer game

I think Adam is another computer addict too !

LOL adam don be mad at me.

if anyone see this

don tell adam

LOL

4th oct

2008-10-04T18:03:00.003+08:00

Ok today woke up damn late

super exhausted after yesterday chalet

so when i woke up i just watch the tv

ok today i am not bored at all

because i am too tired to be bored

Went to prepare my own breakfast

After eating i went to play my lappy

LOL was playing devil may cry

OMG i finally killed that bitch

i go my guitar

but one thing

the guitar isn't got in damage

i think the guitar is just there for u to see nia

...

later in the afternoon

my sis came back with her boyfriend

her boyfriend wanted to buy a house

so i helped him to register online

Wow its a miracle

i manage to register this complicated shit

there was jut too many steps

and i thought i won't be abe t register it successfully

LOL

This prove that i am smart

So zhimin, canberran, and some friends mine out there

don call me ------.

not gonna say out

ok there isn't much things going on today

so i guess thats about it

LOL

OMG some one vote for me that i am hot in my friendster

WOOT

ok now i think i am hot

don add any comment on this guys

i know u guys wanna say something

just bare with me ok ?

LOL

3rd oct

2008-10-03T08:56:00.005+08:00

came to school at around 8.30

saw george and eugene taking 902

but i took 169

lateri saw my coginitive faci in the same bus as me

wanted to say hi

but he didn't even look at me

then nvm ....

came in to class ask him why he never say hi

he say i never say hi first

LOL

went to have my break with my friends

lol went to buy th indonesian cusine again

ate ayam penyet

came back to class after everyone bought their food

LOL we went to a table that was not occupied by anyone

and dine there

We were talking about racist joke when we were having our lunch

Sharon i don know why u have to laugh so hard when one rice flew to my seats

she laughed until tears was visible

Second meeting came

slivia i told u i am going to blog about u

u shoot me too much today

i need to shoot u here

silvia u suck LOL

i hate u too LOL

and thx f0r ur options

thing i will choose the last resort ? ( take 168)

LOL how can u insult ur best friend .

i am realli dissapointed with you

Angie sry to come to ur group and disturb u

i know i very irritating

LOL sry angie

last meeting come

my team presenting

and i think that i am good at story telling

LOL everyone clapped so i think u guys think i am good

going to my sis chalet later

sian

which bus too take ?

ok reached pasir ris

i don even know which bus to take to downtown

slivia don laugh !

LOL

omg i went to ask some one for help

and thank the for their help

reached the chalet

nothing to do other then eating

isn't it what a chalet is suppose to mean ?

ok i think other then that should be a gathering

realli sian...

surprisingly today i did not eat much !

i only ate 1 plate of beehoon

5 satay

1 stingray( small one)

1 cheese hot dog

thats it

and the beehoon is like u can finish it up in 8 mouths.

i don know why i ate that little

but i was very full

i think it was the drinks that make me full

went home and my parents fetch my grandma and cousin home

my little cousin who is just 2 years old sat beside me

my grandma was surprise as to why my cousin was so damn quiet

my grandma say:" must be the influence of ugine, he use to be like that when he was young."

LOL

Came home after that

yue bong message me to smile and don be mad at her...

but one thing i am not mad at anything

and she told me that this morning i sound very fierce

LOL

hmm guys do i really sound very fierce?

if i have provoked anyone of u ,

i am sry!

really don mean anything

thats just a joke .

everything i may seem serious when i am scolding u or shooting u

but it was just a joke

maybe i should change the way i say it out

Yue ming sry for being fierce

i go learn how to be nice from bunny

2nd oct

2008-10-02T15:28:00.004+08:00

came in to class at around 8.40

at first i thought i am going to be the only one in my group

but soon geshy and silvia came to the class

phew i thought i am going to be loner today

Later fat thing and dianah came

LOL which make my group to have 5 ppls

saw dianah and fatin had their hair cut

dianah look like the eygptian lady( don know the name)

and fatin look hip LOL

Went to have our breakfast together with my classmates

super damn funny when i was buying the drink

i think silvia saw my hand shiverin when i was carrying the drinks

don think i am weak

my hand shiver quite easily

LOL this is not an excuse but it is a fact

came back to class after breakfast

find our something

i did not finish my fcking worksheet

shit

though we still have time to do our worksheet

we chat away instead of doing the worksheet

ok faci i know i am in wrong

but LOL i don care for today

i am still in the holiday mood

saw geshy playing his devil may cry 3

wow he managed to kill the bitch

FCK ?!

nvm i am going to ask him to help me

i wan that guitar

wa sian tmr going to take bus to pasir ris

silvia thx arh

wan me take 168

...

don have to say much

today presentation was quite fck up

wat to do ?

just rot for the day lor

since i am not going to get good grade

went home with my friends

was feeling super giddy

maybe i was damn tired

reach home see no one...

weird wher is my bro ?

did he went to stay over at my sis chalet ?

i never call him

too lazy to do it

But it is good for him to be away

I can sleep with peace

DAMN WHERE IS MY PARENTS !?

I am hungry

my stomach is eating himself

i need food!

I miss E37L ...

Looking through the pics i had

1st oct

2008-10-01T08:36:00.003+08:00

woke up early again this morning

my mum bought my favourite breakfast

beehoon with noodle

with my favourite sunshine egg

LOL

after eating i went to use my com

log to otakucenter

find out that my favourite anime series have come out

but unfortunately that is going to be the last series

hope that there will still be a part 2

as the manga are still going on

was playing warcraft the whole day

but wtf i didn't even win any games

super damn pissed off

came back home

saw my mum

later my sis came back

together with her friends

they are going to have a chalet tmr

so they came over to our house first then go to the chalet on the next day

super damn sian...

I DON REALLY WANNA GO TO HER CHALET

30th sep

2008-09-30T09:22:00.001+08:00

woke up at 7.30...

don even know what to do

CAN'T get back to sleep!

played games but still can't kill the boredom

might be going to preorder WOTK

went to my friend house in the afternoon

nothing better to do again

so i did the same thing

Play game...

Something special today

my friend an i played our games while having tons of snacks beside us

imagine u are sitting infront on the computer

eating drinking playing

u can be the laziest person in the world

lol

Ok i was about to go back home

realise that it was raining

so my friend wanted to lent me an umbrella

when he said lend me an umbrella

i sang

a a a under my umbrella ala ala

LOL

Here come the funniest part

He wanted to lend me an disney character picture umbrella

wow

that was super ...

so i just rejected it

But thank to her sis

she lent me her umbrella which kinda better

at least it is not gayish

LOL

came home see my mum sleeping already

went in to her room tell her i am back

she sound super exhausted

the minute i hear her voice

my heart kinda ache

Don worry mummy

i will give u the best when i am grown up

u shall be the more fortunate mummy in the world

LOL

don say i am childish

cuz this is what i wan to do for my mum .

29th sep

2008-09-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

this morning i came to the class

saw some one in the class sian 1/2

she asked me ," can u help up in the quiz question ? "

i answered yes

But i never even do anything at all

lol i think she is damn pissed off

Ok when the break come

Jia min told me that she asked her something

" do you all know that ugine put all your names in the letter of complaint?"

When i heard that i was damn pissed off

fck her she thought i timid is it ?

putting others name so that i won't be the only one involved ?

come on i would do it even no one is supporting me

You know why ?

i just wan to say something to u Anata guru guru pa buta

2nd break came

sharon super emo today

don ow what happened

hope she is ok now

Mumu had his wire disconnected again

i don know what he said

"katami guru guru pa muta"

understand what is that ?

he made everyone of us in the group laughed like shit

mumu tell u something

I realise enna kinda like to hit ur stomach

got the sound ,"deng..."

LOL!!! sry sia don be mad at me

3rd meeting came

Here is the funniest part

when he say something

everyone in the class do the ankat bolat action

the one who did it the funniest was sharon

imagine her doing the ankat bolat with both her hand at a fast speed repeatedly

and the face was damn funny

Imagine the world class do and say," ANKAT BOLAT , ANKAT BOLAT!"

lol!

Mumu made a comment about him

he have his dick on his head

and everytime scratching his " head"

i think he never wash them properly

maybe got gutu on it

imagine ur dick have gutu

scratch here and there everywhere u go

people might think u are PCCing

LOL

Went home with my friends

Saw my neighbour and some friends on the bus

But i just ignore them

pretend i did not see them

super exhausted nothing to say to them

avoid is the best option

came home still have the word ankat bolat in my head

told my mum and she is also doing the action i did when i taught her

imagine her doing it while cooking

I SHOULDN'T HAVE TAUGHT HER!

she laughed until she forgot to cook vegetable

only remember when we are already having dinner

Smart sia

No vegetable but meat.

ok one more time

ANKAT BOLAT

28th sep

2008-09-28T13:36:00.001+08:00

ok i woke i at 7 am this morning

don ask me why i woke up so early

cuz i don even wan to wake up so early

So wat to do ?

i can go back to sleep after i woke up

so i went to watch the TV

played devil may cry 3 again this morning

finally i got through the stage that i did not complete yesterday

lol geshy i think i played much more futher then urs

went to my friend house

nothing to do

played element TD

and i lost at the stage of 56

4 more stage to completing it

was thinking opf coming to school yesterday

as i hate some one

i think everyone know who she is

but nvm i will still go for the seek of my future

27th september

2008-09-27T10:48:00.001+08:00

ok woke up this morning

my mum cook my favourtie breakfast

Fried rice LOL

nothing to do so i played my computer game

was playing devil may cry 3

which geshy gave me

i played far enough...

i reached stage 7 boss!

But one fck thing happen...

i accidently click on the restart mission

and press on yes...

so holy mother fcker...

i have to restart again...

Ok i came to my friend house and was playing computer game

i was playing green circle TD

one asshole said was super idiotic

he thought he could win me

and was showing off to me how strong he was

but in the end i pawn him

wat a nub he is

Sian nothing better to do today

All i can do is just to play game

Went back home after that

went to take a look at my hamster

Find out something

he was shivering ....

so i thought he was sick

so i woke him up...

and realise he was not ...

should i still think of her ?

or should i jut let her go ?

i think i fell in love with 2 girls again...

not gonna 2 time again...

26th sep

2008-09-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

this morning my classmates and i had breakfast

was chatting on the table that was not occupied

kept joking about danny name

" dan ni"- squeeze the nana

He is also being very lame

Yue mong said she is not feeling well

as she had low BP

Hope she is feeling better now

Went back home with my friends

told me a stupid joke

Laugh all the way on the bus

I think the people behind us was cursing us

As we were very loud

But who cares, we are not joking at her

Went home and went to my hamster

Looking at how my hamster sleep...

He really look like a pig

I will show you guys the picture one day

Went to my friend house after that

waited for the bus

saw a chio bu , i guess she doesn't even give a damn of me

i too ugly LOL

I am not being emo

LOL

family?

2008-09-10T19:17:00.000+08:00

what is family ? is it a place where you will be shined with love ? But when you hear my story, you will think that there is no such word in my mind. Does a family pushes every blame to you , even though they are the cause of it ? What if you were the one sitting around and not expecting any arguement at home , and one of ur "family member" ask u something and provoked u ? i know i am in a wrong, but lets think about it who started it ? " i asked u nicely ,and u shouted at me!" are u sure the statement u made are 100% true ? U may try to fool my mum and siblings , but u underestimated me. u insulted my intellligence," ask u something and yet u don even know, what is the use of u going to school!" do u think this is what u mean by " i speak to u nicely" ? Come on u think i would need to relay on u now , u are just a piece of shit in my eye.
Just in case u do not know , i have not called u since months ago. Neither do i wan to speak to u, don be too thick skin. If u think that those educated ppl knows every single shit in this world, why don't u be one of them. Or why don u be me and i will tell u, "ask u something and yet u don even know, what is the use of u going to school!" what would ur reaction be ? Yes u would say u would not overeact, but if that really happen i doubt u wouldn't be mad. I know u too well, all ur fcking vulgarities would start to come out.
The reason why i blogged this is to declare my relationship with u ends here, i would go and find out how to break up ties with u. And i promise that all my wealth i had in the future, u would not be able to share of touch it. Neither can u smell it, even if u begged me i would not pity u at all. I are just a sore in my eyes, fcking get lost from my life.

my 5th comment

2008-07-18T08:42:00.000+08:00

well today's was a rather dissapointing day. my friends were not sitting with me , and they left me out for no reason. maybe they knew that they are not in my team and hence sitting in other places, but i feel that they should have come and say hello ? well if i have did something wrong, i apologize for it . well lets not talk about them, today's is my friend birthday and i have to celebrate with him. i don't even want to celebrate with him because of idiot is going to celebrate with us . well what to do ? overall it is my friends birthday , and i had to accompany him.

my 3rd comment

2008-07-16T08:58:00.000+08:00

today is a nightmare to me, can't believe that i have an "E" for my coginitive! WTF ? alright let me see whether should trasnfer school or not . i am still considering now whether or not to transfer to NYP or not. i don find any point staying in this school when i am not even able to progress. what if i am not able to get into the university ? am i going to stuck here forever ?
Well having to consider whether can i make it to university or not, i think i will just stick in this school for the time being. since the next enrolment for NYP is on april 2009, i shall just spent my time here and see how much i have progress.
Ok set

my first comment

2008-07-14T15:12:00.000+08:00

alrite since this is my since comment i am going to talk a little about my life, i stay in sembawang and have a family members of 5. people may think that my family is quite cool or quite united, but the fact is that we are not . my parents are always busy working and my sister is a arh lian and brother a arh beng. what to do?
well they are still good to be except for my sis, i do not know why but i think we have a gap in between us now. ever since she had became a arh lian, our communication reduced. we used to hang around with a group of friends playing badminton , she was the one that taught me how to play badminton. She was the champion when she was in secondary school also a athlete which earned her 21 throphy in total. however everything changed ever since she became a arh lian, we do not hang out together neither do we talk like we used to be. She used to be so kind and good, but she is never the same.

thinking of my past really sadden me.
i think what i can do now is to settle my mums problem, she had to go for a leg operation , she is pretty worried for the operation and the insult from her friends. I think those ppl are sarcastic, seeing suffering made them happy ? i think they should be punish too, and i believe that it will be their turn to suffer the same thing like my mum.
God bless ,
ugine